solitary-story

2009-11-13T09:50:00.000-08:00

You cause a scar at my heart with an iloveyou on it x3

2009-08-17T06:23:00.000-07:00

Happy 4th month beloved girlfriend !
Iloveyou Vanessa !
17th is the sweetest day of every month (:
Thousand kisses to ur cheeks and lips !
Mwaahs !~

This is a little something for my one and only love ! (:

A love so imperfect
Its all i can give
But you didnt mind
That touches my heart
Say not a word
But a breath through my lips

A smile so sweet tender
A glimpse wont do with such sparkles in your eyes
An elegant sight
One can pick you out from a crowd of thousands

But nothing can compare to that little heart of yours
A kind and gentle character
Causes me to fall and you catch me again
With such efforts
My heart is all yours

I chose to steal your heart
And im not giving it back
Never will i ever give you back
I want you mine
And all mine you are
Not with words
But a kiss that cuts through my lips

Iloveyou !

Noel is definitely feeling loved !
And having you by my side for the past 4 months is the greatest gift from God !~ :D

2009-08-16T03:35:00.000-07:00

So near , yet so far..

Had been super busy and hardworking lately , so didnt have time to blog.

Theres a connect 09 i wanna go ! Tickets 5 bucks and just go there and play ps3 , xbox and all and win prizes ? Thats cool ! Sadly sale of tickets is over !~ :(

Firstly , prelims is as easy as a nutshell ! (:

Guess everything would pay off at the end of the year ?

Im soooo gonna make a BIG jump after prelims ! (:

Secondly , i really really really wanna learn how to cook !!

Not only cook pizza , but i wanna learn how to cook... instant noodles(?)

Thats the truth uhr..

I dont knw how to cook anything besides pizza -.-

Thirdly , I seriously CANT WAIT for my church music ministry auditions !~

Figured out my drum solo already ! But now need to test it out before entering though..

Cant wait cant wait cant wait !!

Im soooo gonna blow the judges minds ! ~

Fourthly , i wannaa... drum set !!!

Man.. i hope udrum sponsors me :D

Fifthly , lol ! hmmm.. i wannaa... new guitar !!

Aww man !!~

Cant wait to get a new one ! :P

Sixthly , LOL!~ i wannaa ... new phone !!

i seriously need a new phone !!

Keypads blown up! lol !

Seventhly , i wannaa.. chocolatte chocolates !

Yum yum! ~

Next week , popping candy ! here i come !!!! :P

Lastly , N levels , screw you , coz im soo gonna eat you up ! :)

Its been fun and amazing for the past week

Learnt alot !

And discovered alot !

Some things are fine ,

But some things aren't meant to be..
Why rush ?

When theres still time ..
Life is short , but time is long..

2009-08-05T06:32:00.000-07:00

( waaah !~ R21 . )

Funny eh this picture ?
Taken yesterday , but had no time to blog .
Its a picture of Arian being sexually abuse ! LOL !~

Today is totally NOT sweet at all .
Woke up too early !
Oh freaking c'mon !
Its a wednesday !
Schools starts at 8 pluss
AND school should always start around that time !
So i can sleep ! :)

So first thing , came to school and slacked off wif the usuals .

Got damn bored luhr !
Maths FAST today too , and i hope for a pass ! >.<>

A math rocks !

And i will conquer it ! :)))

Haiyurh..

I got soo many things to complain abt the school .

The canteen is disgusting !!

Bird droppings all over !

Gross much .

Cleaners dont clean canteen , we oso dont clear plates lor ! LOL !~~~

Secondly is that OM !

Wth.. now the school is like a prison !

Grrs..

OM dressing up in fancy halloweenie costume trying to intimidate students -.-

Irritating !

Now , school = prison !

Cant wait to get to sec 5 and guaduate so i can make a "prison break" .

Gaaah !

Eng , Math and 3 other relevant subjects below 19 pts !

Eng no problem , math can make it !

3 other relevant would be A math , combine humans and sci ?

Hmmm.. buck up buck up !

After star , played basketball wif the usuals .

Dont wanna sweat and get all sticky but in the end , i did -.-

Play for the fun of it .

Feeling super tired right now !

But still got math revision , history and all .

Tired luh !

I wanna sleep for 72 hrs !! But meals included of course ! Lol !

Whenever you're lost at sea
Baby just call for me
Cause you know i'll be calling for you
Whenever you turn the page
Dance on another stage
Know in this life
I'll be dancing with you ♥

2009-08-03T03:50:00.000-07:00

Hey guys !
Had lots and lots of fun today !
But the fun is totally incomplete without you baby ! :(
Here are some pictures taken during english lesson while the teacher is away and we were goofin' around as a class !~ :D

( Arian imitating buddha . LOL )

( It was Sebas idea to do this !! )

This is some of the stuffs 4A can do together. LOL!~
Laugh , joke , work , suffer together ! :D ( maybe not the work and suffering part -.- )

Today together with the usuals were talking abt canteen food .
No offence but why must the stalls produce hair as their special menu ?
Hair = Black sauce bee hoon . LOL !~

Headed home wif ZR , Renan and Brandon .
Otw back , 2 guys were like fighting and quarreling and all.
And its from our school ! Lower sec boys -.-
According to Renan , it happened like this..
Boy A ran to boy B and splash a cup of ice over boy B .
Boy B shouts " kaninabeh ccb ! I oso nvr splash so mch ice on you ! "
ZR being a calefare shout loudly " Oi ! spar lar spar larrr ! dont waste time talk talk just spar larhh ! " and we were all like " zr , shuddup larhh ! "
Continuing,
Boy A replies " soo ? splash means splash wad ! buay song lai ah ! "
Boy B ignores and walks away..
Awhile later , Boy A catches up..
Boy A shout " humji buay song lai la ! "
Boy B shouts back " ccb ! "
Boy B stormed towards boy A
We all stopped and thought that they would fight , but they were talking and talking..
ZR's comments " nabeh cb talk wad talk , just fight larh ! not need talk one.."
Renan's comments " ok lar ok lar , go already , they sure talk talk den say haiya tired already want go home, den the end "
In the end , what happened we dont knw.. lol ! The End..

Otw to pending station , ZR was being such an idiot ! :D
I asked him " you live in HDB izzit ? "
Den his replyy " noooo ! i live in .. "
Before he could say anything , i stopped him den said
" ok , you always talk nonsense but i knw you live in the tong sam pa "
His reply " tong sam pa ? wads that ? "
I reply " garbage.. "
Just nice we walk pass the garbage place and he was like " theree !!! i live here ! "
and i reply " yala !! tong sam pa wad ! "
Not long after , theres this stench of pepper that came hovering around our noses .
I say " waaah piang eh ! your house really smelly siaa ! "
Den he say " yalahh ! black pepper smell wad , tmr you come will have strawberry smell "
LOL ! Theres many more retarded stuff he said but lazy to post.. know him better and he will definitely make you ROFL !

A picture perfect love

Is always dreamed of

And i dont have to dream anymore

Cause baby there is no one no where

Could ever answer my prayers

They always seem to come back to me

And now i've found my someone somewhere

And its you

You're right there

I can hardly believe

I'm living this prayer

I love you baby ! ♥

2009-08-01T07:59:00.000-07:00

Today rocks !
But coming to the ending of today rocks even MORE !~
Woke up early for STOMP ! .
Went to school wif Asshiddiq wif his fake 15ringgit Ray-ban shades. LOL !~
Dont take it too hard uhr Asshiddiq :)
Reach school and wow , everyone was already waiting for the bus .
Rehearsed a few times till the bus arrived .
Performed only for the competition in Ping Yi sec at Bedok .
Mdm Shanti's formal sch as principal ! :)
After we performed , judges comments " Guys , this is the best performance among the secondary school category , but yall used too many professional instruments "
wth . ~
Professional need professional instruments ma !
And judges comments continue " and are you all wearing this on the finals ? Because its kinda plain , yall should try more accessories like newspapers and maybe sticking CDs and all "
wth !~
Sticking CDs and wearing newpapers ? not cool -.-
Thank god sec 4s arent playing :P
Headed wif the group to Macritchie .
Too hot , so didnt wanted to play.
No air-con !~ -.-!!
From Macritchie , went to KAP meet Vanessa :)

Ate and thought she would come early but in the end , waited quite long.
Hmm.. nvm :) I enjoy waiting for her ONLY ! :)
Met her around 4 plus and started digging in again .
Told jokes and craps, laughed out loud ! x)
Loved each other and headed home ♥

Jovi wanna join the christian band ! Hoo-ray !
So now is Tina and Vanessa singer , Isaac lead , Jovi pianist and i drummer ? :)
NO fan for you dear ! :)
woohoo ! Seriously CANT wait to go jamming again ! :)

Something about your eyes , your hair , you drive me wild
Girl , you're so beautiful and you're all mine
Im the luckiest man in the world
Baby your so picture perfect
You stole my heart girl its just so worth it

Iloveyou Dearest ! ♥

2009-07-31T03:20:00.000-07:00

Basically today sucks ,
Woke up , bathed , den went back to sleep again.
Woke up again , texted Vanessa , den went back to sleep again .
Until around 630 ? Man.. Im sleepy !
Headed to sch with Sebastian .
Walked very fast coz gonna be late .
As usual , in sch , hiding from Mr Hoe again -.-
Im soooo gonna have another haircut !
Slept the whole day through today .
No energy !
And my energy boost didnt came to school today , sadded !
Darling i miss you ! <3
Didnt do eng, geog , e math , recess, a math and physics.
Too tired !
Cant even throw a basketball -.-

While playing basketball , Junrong and Ah Bui push the ball to me ,
I didnt catch the ball properly and the ball flipped my fingernail wide open.
Now its black and looks disgusting -.-
Its okay Junrong and Ah Bui , my wounds heal fast ! :))

Headed home early missing my sweetest sweet beautiful ,
With my head held low staring at my thumb,
Jovi was talking abt stuffs and i forgot abt it.

Forming a christian band !!
Tina was discussing wif me in forming a christian band in CDSS .
Cool !!
Tina andVanessa singer ,
Im drums ! :)

Okay , PEACE ! :)

I love you darling ! <3

2009-07-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

ILOVEYOU VANESSA DARLING !~ <3

2009-07-12T06:17:00.001-07:00

If you guys think im stupid ,
Yes i am ,
The greatest girl in my whole life ,
I just blew it ...
Please..
Im feeling suckish now already .
Do you think i enjoy being like this ?
No..
It sucks..
So by all means, just leave me alone .

Im sorry ..
I didnt knew WHY i was holding on grudges when I already have you by my side .
I guess I overprotected you and guess that makes me lose you .
I feel jealous when I dont even need to..
Its just sooo painful for me to learn frm my stupid mistakes like this. .
It really really hurts me .
I really need you back right now .
I try to keep all this feelings ,
But its hard to do so..
I thought I could make you love me more and more.
But I pushed you too hard .
Im sorry .
I didnt knew wad i was doing ,
Im soo stressed up right now .
I really cant deal with anything without you here by my side
I reflected on what i did yesterday .
And i that was the stupidest thing i could've ever done .
Im sorry ..
I really want you to smile again .
I really do...
I want to have you by my side feeling nice warm and safe again.
I WANT MY VANESSA BACK !

2009-07-11T08:03:00.001-07:00

Had fun , lots of fun today ,
Jokes and laughter are music to my ears ! =)
Said wanna study but study abit only.
Wanted to meet at 12 den extended to 330 den till 430 den till 455. lol !
Den wanna study but actually we hardly study.
Brought books and stuff for nothing. LOL
Went home late but still got to eat my western ! =)

You are , definitely the one and only person that touched my heart .
I regret making you feel hurt .
I trust you , but its like an invisible trust .
I love you so so soooooooooo much that Im always around you like a barrier .
When I'm sleeping , studying or just goofing around ,
You are always on my mind .
I'd think " Whatever I do , I will do it for you . "
And when I do it for you ,
Somehow , I'll put in 120% and achieve a 200% result .
I didnt knew , until we finally got together ,
That love is soooo strong !
But my love for you is stronger than love itself .
Im sorry , to make you feel lousy .
I too , feel lousy .
Maybe Im a little too over-protective ?
I will try to let down and be not so over-protective coz if this goes on , I'll lose you .
And losing you is definitely NOT and option .
I'll stick with you , and hold you tight .
You are mine and Im yours forever .
I Love You <3

2009-07-10T23:19:00.000-07:00

10/07/09

Woke up late and rushed hoping that i wouldnt be late.
hmmm.. Sch as usual . Boring !
Went to play basketball den slacked wif Arian and gang while waiting for her .
Got damn bored so started strolling around and all ,
Watching ppl playing soccer.
Seriously a boring day.
After some time , fell asleep in the canteen .
Den someone woke me up .
It was Azman .
When i was half asleep Raihan kissed me !
Yuckss !
Kiss like dog, JOKE !

What you say is always right
I looked into your eyes and i felt your love like never before !
It builds me up for anything and everything !
Nothing can stand between us and you will always be mine ! <3

2009-07-08T06:31:00.000-07:00

I LOST MY STICKS !! -.-
My favourite rubber sticks is lost/stolen !
Wif my named carved on it =(
So much memories on that stick and now its gone =(
Damn !
Please come back to me my American Hickory yellow rubber sticks wif my name carved on it !

You lavished me with love,
Your love like sweet perfume washes over me,
You comfort me wif words,
Came to i run,
You hold me in your arms like haven from the storm.

2009-07-05T07:04:00.000-07:00

I got this from the net, seems interesting , so i copied and paste it here, only for the ladies but tips for the guys . I guess.. ?

"The Boy Next Door vs. Bad boy who’s better?"

There is the age old question that puzzles women everywhere for ages. Which guy is better boy friend material? We all see these hot and sexy bad boy personas with their tight motorcycle jeans and leather jackets that have any women melting at his feet in a heartbeat. With their ripped, buff, muscles that can rip a shirt with just one flex these buff bad boy’s have women drooling all over them. Yes ladies we all know these very enchanting and dreamy bad boys. The bad boy, fresh off of his Fat Boy Harley Davidson motor cycle, has any woman melting at his feet as she climbs on the back of his bike. While these bad boys are scorching hot and out of this world, we have to ask ourselves, are they better then the boy next door. In comparison to the bad boy we have the charming, superb, thoughtful and hilarious boy next door. This handsome and striking young man will charm any woman’s pants off. He will craftily work his way into a lady’s heart and life. He will use quick and swift dating techniques to win over the hearts of any women’s friends and family. This boy next door will have any women eating out of the palm of his hands. He is caring and thoughtful and girl friends will envy the lucky woman who is dating him. We all know these hot and dreamy men but who is better boy friend material? We will compare the typical bad boy persona against the boy next door persona to see who will come up on top of the list.
The first striking young man that we will encounter is the boy next door. The boy next door is the man of any woman’s dreams. The striking and dreamy young man will shower the woman that he dates will tons of gifts. He will arrive at her work unannounced with two dozen red roses a card that proclaims his feelings for her and a box of chocolates. This thought full princely man will show his love for the princess that he dates with romantic dates. The princely boy next door will plan a wistful date on the beach with a candle light dinner. Terrific boy next door will let this lucky lady know that he really cares for her with surprises. The superb guy will buy her flowers and send them to her work place. Also he will purchase front row concert tickets to her favorite band. This breath taking man lets his girl know that she is amazing and that he’s eternally great full to have her in his life. He will treat her like a princess. This amazing young man will win heart over with just one kiss. He loves to show her how much he cares about her. This dreamy boy next door is sensitive to her needs, and her feelings. It is not to our surprise that he will do whatever it takes to make the lucky lady that he is dating happy. He loves to show his feelings for her with cards and love notes. The brilliant young man will stop whatever he is doing to come to his lady’s rescue when she needs him. It is so astonishing that he will make her supper and buy her medicine when she is sick. The wonderful and charming boy next door is devoted to making the girl of his dreams happy. When any women see’s the prince charming known as the boy next door they envy his princess.
The boy next door’s personality is no match for his exceptionally good looks. His good looks are endless and miles long, just like his personality. He has a drop dead gorgeous smile to match with his perfectly straight teeth. The smile may get some women like how Tom Cruise had ladies everywhere just at hello but his good looks don’t end there. The boy next door has a body like Brad Pitt’s and a full head of thick and luscious hair for his girl to run her fingers through. With his full head of alluring hair he has a perfect wardrobe to match. He knows exactly how to dress for any occasion with the right amount of manliness.
However this boy next door is not as tamed as he seems to be. The boy next door has a wild side to him. The wild untamed boy next door will surprise his lady with his very macho horse play, especially when out of the blue swifts his girl off of her feet and onto his shoulder. His macho side loves sports but he loves to participate in them even more. The sports loving side of him loves to play tag football and basket ball with his lucky lady. A man’s man is what we would call this boy next door, with his very macho sports talk. He knows everything to know about any sport and watches all of the games. He gets along perfect with any male figure that is in his lady’s life which makes him the life of the party. A very impulsive boy next door will often start all the fun games at the party. This impulse causes him to be the life of the party and has the women jealous of his date and the men envying him for his quick party techniques. We all love the boy next door for numerous and countless amazing qualities. A dashing, charming, suave, lively good-natured boy next door has amazing qualities that women would die for to have in a man however we are forgetting about the awesomely bad, bad boy.
Next to the lighthearted boy next door we have the awesomely bad, bad boy. Every women has seen these bad boys, we all have drooled all over them. But are they the men for us? We love these bad boys. They have our hearts pounding in a matter of seconds, due to their dangerous life styles. The dangerous bad boy will shower the women he dates with a trip to the tattoo parlor to get his name tattooed on her. The tattooed bad boy will let the women that he’s dating know how good he makes her look. This very vein yet amazingly hot bad boy still manages to make his date’s heart pitter patter as he tells her that he is so much hotter than her. He will shower his women with long motorcycle rides to his favorite bar as he tells her to flirt with the bar tender all night long to get free drinks so he won’t have to pay. As his date is slobbering all over him the dangerous bad boy will brag to all of the biker guys how hot she is and how they wish she was theirs. This biker boy will show up at his lady’s work unannounced to tell her he got locked out of his apartment and needs to chill at hers until he she gets off of work. He is very hazardous and always makes risky decisions that often lands him right in the big house, but that’s where his lovely lady comes in. This risky bad boy will call his lady from the big house to bail him out of jail. Fresh out of the jails cell he will romance his lady to a trip to his favorite bar to pay those guys who put there in the first place a visit. After taking his sweet revenge he will take his lady out for dinner. This wayward bad boy surprises his lady with wild unplanned road trips, where they get caught in a thunderstorm and she has to get off to cover him and his bike till it stops. This sizzling hot bad boy is very thoughtful when it comes to himself; he loves to make his girl happy when he gets something in return. In his relationships it is all about him and his bad self. This fierce bad boy gets fired up with he catches another man catching a glimpse of his trophy girl friend. He won’t think twice about stirring up a storm with the unfortunate guy that dared to look at his lady. Besides his fierce temper this bad boy loves to talk all about cars and pool. It is all about his blistering hot Fat Boy. His Fat Boy is waxed polished photo captured and talked too. The very tuff macho man broke down his macho side to show his love for his motor cycle. The macho bad boy is caring and sensitive when it comes to his beloved Fat Boy. So it is no surprise that he carries pictures of his beloved bike in his wallet. The sensitive bad boy love to talk about his motor cycle and brag about how his is better than any ones. The love for his bike will get on the nerves of the friends and family members of his date, if the lucky lady that he is dating is lucky enough to last that long. However this bad boy does not stop there he will often cause fist fights with his girls loved ones. Or he will place bets on pool games. Often he will win all the games and buy his lady dinner with the money that he made off of her loved ones.
His very charming and award winning personality does not end there. To go along with his award winning personality the bad boy has a mind-blowing body. With tight ripped abs and bulging arms muscles this bad boy an amazingly hot face like James Dean. With a killer smile this ladies man the eye of every women. He has an amazingly good hair and has the very sexy scruffy face like Oliver Martinez, or Justin Timberlake.
In life we all will run into these two guys. We will meet the bad boy and the boy next door, we will head over heels these guys but in reality we have to choose the one guy who will last for the one who is the fling. When put the bad boy and the boy next door under the microscope it is clearer then a sunny day that the boy next door will triumph over the bad boy. In the end the only good qualities that the bad boy poses are his amazingly good looks. When we compare the boy next door to the bad boy, the bad boy looks like a complete loser and a hopeless case. The bad boy is no match to the boy next door. The boy next door has an amazing personality, good looks, and great people skills and most important he takes care of the women that he is dating. All of the pieces are there for any women to connect that dots and pick the man who soared to the top of the list. So all of us ladies have to remember that no matter how sexy dangerous is what really matters is that dangerous is not forever. The bad boys come and go but the boy next door is the true keeper.

2009-07-03T17:48:00.000-07:00

Phoo ! Im back !
Been studying even harder lately.
Well , things have been going really really well ! =)))
But Im damn damn damn upsad right noww..
Because something happen yesterday that totally and really really totally sucked !
Something that ripped me off of my face.
And for guy's , most important part of themselves is their face !
Embarrassment -.-
Everyone says no difference but got BIG difference lor.
I need Vit B, C and more dairy products !!!!!!!
Last night oso sucked alot .
Ate a really super hard apple that cause my teeth to shake .
Damn worried sia..
I dont mind if its a molar tooth or something but its..
the front teeth !!
omg !
And I just realised that both losing hair and losing teeth = losing face MAJORLY

Finally started talking wif dad.
How cool's that ?? =P
After a cold war for a long time finally can let it out.

I had a dream two days ago.
I hope this dream doesnt come through at all
I cried in my dreams
What happen if it is for real ?

I try and try to leave but I just cant
Let you go cause every single moment
I heart says that i just cant quit
Im like the ending of a movie that you just dont get
I dont show up late
I never forget
You got me running circles in my head
No , I cant quit
You're my bad habit

2009-06-22T04:48:00.000-07:00

Haiyo yalah Rachel ! I update now okay !

Firstly, Rachel ! Hope you are doing fine in everything , giving up is really NOT an easy thing to do, so, i admire you sia. HAH !

Hmm.. its been very very very AWESOME eversince we got back together.
Life is just like paradise , i've my beloved, it just feels like i got everything back !

Anyways, holidays MAY be extended due to the H1N1 virus. Cool uhr !!
If extended den i'll have more than enuff time to complete my homework !
Freaking hoping and hoping hard that holidays extend.
And i also heard that thr is gonna be an MOE meeting to decide on the extended holidays due to H1N1 virus.
MUST HOLIDAY !
I sooo wish that I can psycho some MOE dude to insist everyone to have an extended holiday.
Haiyaaa, school should be closed till next year so that can have more time to study for N's !!
Have been working seriously damn damn hard !
More holidays so i can have more time to catch up everything i lag behind on !

Some negative stuff that happen this week is that my mom's sick !
Aww man... sadded !

& sorry Haziq for not replying ! Sucha sucker luh !

Time is precious,
Time is running out,
Time is needed,
Time is wanted,
Time to do something,
Time to end something,
Time is something i really really need at this crucial moment of my life.

2009-06-18T04:50:00.001-07:00

Finally ! I can get my sleep , do my stuffs ,
Why ?
SHE CAME BACK ! :D
I thought i'd really lose her forever .
Damn happy damn happy !
Finally !
No more pain , no more sorrow , no more sadness !
I really dont know how to type out how happy im now !
All glory to God !

I wanna special thank Arian for the magic at his fingertips ! Thanks Arian for everything ! Dang, now i owe you twice , lmao !

Vanessa , I promise i'll focus more and not fool around . Loves ! ♥

But here some people i really wanna thank that always gave me their support when
I was down . :
-Rachel
-Haziq
-Arina
-Yingling
-Farris
-Izzuan
-Joey
-Wei Lun
Thanks guys ! I really do appreciate and im glad to have really good friends like yall ! =)

I fell in love with you from the very start
Not even distance can keep us far apart
Girl, i was meant for you
As you were meant for me
No matter what it takes i want this to last eternally

2009-06-16T18:14:00.000-07:00

The worst day has come.. The most wonderful girl broke up with me after 2 months.. I really cant take it . I can barely survive when she went to Malaysia and now for months, years and forever ?
You promised me that you will last eternally with me
You promised that if we break up , it will be I who will initiate the break.
but after the break , you promised that you will come back to me..
You said you hate ppl making empty promises, what about you ?
Im sorry for being too over-protective and hurting you more than i hurting myself, but i really really really cant forget you .
How can i move on when im still deeply in love with you ?
I didnt cried for Ariel and Michelle, but once you ask for break , my world just turned upside down , my heart turned black and dark , my tower just crumble and fall..
Im always happy , smiling like mad. Why ? becoz of every single message you text me , every single word you said , and every little action you do.
I just nid to really blog this out. I just cant take it..
You told me to tell you all my troubles in my heart.
I poured it all out , and you rejected me in the end.
It isnt fair..
I really want my Vanessa back. i really do..
Tears just cant stop over-flowing, cause every drop is for you.
You love me and why you break ?
I told you before to do things for your own , dont do it for me , coz .. it will turn out this way.
I regret for everything i've done.
The only thing now is to get you back.
I cant live without Vanessa telling me " i love you " every night before i sleep.
I wish this was all a nightmare and soon i'll wake up at the bathroom as my bed is really wet.
I cant move on
You are really my little adrenaline rush in my life.
You boost everything up.
I will nvr fail you ever again.
Please come back to me again.

You gave me a reason
Told me that i'll always be yours
You are my desire
My heart is so on fire for you
I cant stop loving you
Because i dont wanna end up in your rearview
Wanna be someone you can turn to
Baby i never wanna lose you
Theres nothing i wont do

So ill watch you like a movie
I'll sing you like a song
Read you like a story
If it takes me all night long
Keep you like a secret
I'll tell you like a joke
Its true its true
That ill love you like i always do
Love you like i always do

†Please answer my prayer:
Oh lord i need strength,
Lord please help me ..
My world just tumbled and fall
You can work miracles for the blind to see and the lame to walk
Do miracles for me
This year is the year of downturn
But thy miracle seed would give me a hundred full in return
I want and i need my hundred full now Lord
I need to pass and get Vanessa back
Answer my prayer Lord
The one and only who loves and can do miracles in every single life
I need a miracle.
Just one miracle.
To have her back by my side
i trust in you and i cast all my cares and troubles unto you
I gave you my whole life.
You saved my soul
You carry me and put me on a rock when i was on sinking sand
With eternal peace i rest in your arms
Amen†

2009-06-09T05:00:00.000-07:00

Felt like blogging agn ?
A secret i feel like screaming it out.
But a secret is a secret.
Everynight is a curse,
Everyday is a sin. No peace for me :(

Hmmm.. nvr blog for a long time le.
How should i start ? hmm... worst day ! why ? Becoz i dropped my nice fresh apple on the floor !
Nooo !!! sadded :(